I just did a meditation:
“Pase lo que pase, la vida sigue su curso. Whatever happens, happens, life continues. Let it go – hand it over.”
“Made a decision to turn our lives and our will over to God as we understood Him.”
What can I say? I clearly visualised me handing over that blank cheque to JC. Nothing but my signature – Sunflower – and the empty lines for Him to write in the amount. There was a little tug of war, but a smile with it: it was a done deal and we both knew it. I need to stop worrying and let it happen.
We were down the river again – my life flowing. I leaned in to drink the water – faith? Like at the well, and it was cool, refreshing, clear, yet deep – like the well. I couldn’t see the bottom of it, like my painting. There were spiders crawling as well, and the fear associated with them. As soon as I acknowledged the fear though, they disappeared.