Diary of a Sunflower: 17 April, year 4

The diary entries are extracts from my spiritual journey, going back about twenty years.

No, I tell you this because I was told to tell it – by what you might call ‘ a higher authority’ – and truth is, the thought of how to tell it has taxed me for so many years.

Miss Garnet’s Angel, Sally Vickers

Sedation has given up the course he was doing to become a teacher and is much lighter for it. With her own school inspection over, the pressure has also been taken off Sunflower a bit at work. Things are a bit more relaxed. 

I feel really close to him at the moment. There’s a warm intensity there. It’s a feeling that we fit together. He compliments me in so many ways. 

I’m getting more into tai chi. I’m ready to be more disciplined with it now – and that’s what I need to do. I’m going on a retreat with Sedation in the summer – looking forward to that. 

I also talked to my ex today about applying for an annulment. He said he would comply for my benefit, but his view would be that it’s the way the church twists it to justify divorce. I can live with that. I wanted to check to ensure that it wouldn’t hurt him, and to make sure he knew that I didn’t regret marrying him. I may well apply for it after the divorce comes through. 

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